Being Alone
Hey what’s up guys, it’s 12:30 AM here in California.
I’m awake and can’t sleep. Why? It’s more obvious than anything else. I’m fucking alone in my house for all the day.
The big hole in my heart continues to invade my life, leading insomnia and weak minds.
I have several big problems that seemingly unsolvable for good.
- I don’t have a girlfriend for a while
- I don’t know how to open my mind, especially to girls
- My efforts don’t last for a long time
I think No.2 is the root cause of the struggle of No.1.
I have my best friend who gets closer to anyone regardless of his gender.
He never feels awkward to someone, having enjoyable conversation with anyone.
I, on the other hand, take a fucking long time to open my mind towards others (mainly girls). This makes conversations awkward and less fun, widening the distance between me and the girl.
How on earth can I…. feel like…. i dunno.
Time will solve the problem, right?